Little Green Leaf

He rambled the other day...about little green leaf. It was gone.

He screamed, wept uncontrollably when the balloon flew away. He watched it sail away into the blue open skies. He would never get it back. He buried his head in my arms.

Loss. It hurts. Grief. It doesn't just go away.

Lord,
We have experienced a tremendous amount of loss over the years. Loss of health. Loss of a baby. Loss of innocence. Loss of dignity. Loss of promises. Loss of work.
Lord, when will this stop? When will we see restoration? When will we be delivered? When will you come and bring back what was stolen? Is it because of sin? Is it because of a curse? Was it because of what I've done? Is it because of what he's done? Lord, forgive us of our sins! Forgive us! Do you see Luke? Do you see Josiah? Do you love them? If you love them, then why is this happening? I don't ask for all of this to stop. I just ask for restoration. I just ask for recovery. I ask for some kind of restoration...

Make there be peace again. Make there be mental, emotional stability. Make mommy 'able' again. Make the hurt heal.

Help, Lord. Where are you? We need you. We're desperate for you.