Slow down

 

2 Timothy 1:7

For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.

 

Since moving back home from our major upheaval, and then losing my mom, I have had a hard time controlling my emotions. I continue to struggle with being a mom, in my marriage, and on top of everything else - resettling in our house with 4 kids. 

 I have turned to food to escape. Not just that, but I have found myself in the very place I used to be in college -- eating impulsively, and then feeling utterly sick. Now that I am 40 years old, I know I cannot do that.

 Yesterday, I lost control in many ways. I am not proud of myself. I hate that my boys see and hear this. I need a break. I need change. 

 God, I know you have given me self control and power, and love. So please give me the courage and strength to change. 

 Today is a new day. My goals? Simply to be more mindful, to slow down, and to allow myself to "feel" all the feelings, even those that are uncomfortable.