I walked 2 miles at the nature center today. My legs are strong--I could walk forever. But my chest started to feel heavy after some time. I really hate this heaviness feeling. I don't know what's going on inside of me -- but it feels low, like at the base of my lungs. I feel like there is a collapse there, or a deflation of some kind. Only You know, God. Doctors do not know, and they can't figure it out.

God, please dissolve this heaviness. If there is a pneumothorax, atelectasis, or deflation/collapse of any kind, allow restoration and healing. Reinflate what has been injured. I don't ask for complete healing anymore -- I just ask for improvement, for incremental healing... to the point where I can function again. I don't have to be 100% my old self. I just need to be able to walk, stand, talk, sit, and care for my children. Also, I would love to be able to work again. Please take away this extreme heaviness, God. Please -- you are the great Physician. Only You can do it. Please also allow me to talk without feeling out of breath or winded while standing. Please do it for my family -- for David, Luke, and Josiah, if not for me.

Lord, as 2018 comes to an end... I look to You to speak to me in 2019. Let there be physical healing, here on earth... and soon. Please be merciful to our family. God, hear my cries. Hear our cries.

Despite feeling terrible, being in nature helped. I can't get enough of Your creation. You are truly beautiful.